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.Women in Love 46/371 Women in Love'You don't? Then wherein does life centre, for you?''I don't know--that's what I want somebody to tell me.As far as I can make out, it doesn't centre at all.It isartificially held TOGETHER by the social mechanism.'Birkin pondered as if he would crack something.'I know,' he said, 'it just doesn't centre.The old ideals are dead as nails--nothing there.It seems to me thereremains only this perfect union with a woman--sort of ultimate marriage--and there isn't anything else.''And you mean if there isn't the woman, there's nothing?' said Gerald.'Pretty well that--seeing there's no God.''Then we're hard put to it,' said Gerald.And he turned to look out of the window at the flying, goldenlandscape.Birkin could not help seeing how beautiful and soldierly his face was, with a certain courage to be indifferent.'You think its heavy odds against us?' said Birkin.'If we've got to make our life up out of a woman, one woman, woman only, yes, I do,' said Gerald.'I don'tbelieve I shall ever make up MY life, at that rate.'Birkin watched him almost angrily.'You are a born unbeliever,' he said.'I only feel what I feel,' said Gerald.And he looked again at Birkin almost sardonically, with his blue, manly,sharp-lighted eyes.Birkin's eyes were at the moment full of anger.But swiftly they became troubled,doubtful, then full of a warm, rich affectionateness and laughter.'It troubles me very much, Gerald,' he said, wrinkling his brows.'I can see it does,' said Gerald, uncovering his mouth in a manly, quick, soldierly laugh.Gerald was held unconsciously by the other man.He wanted to be near him, he wanted to be within his sphereof influence.There was something very congenial to him in Birkin.But yet, beyond this, he did not take muchnotice.He felt that he, himself, Gerald, had harder and more durable truths than any the other man knew.Hefelt himself older, more knowing.It was the quick-changing warmth and venality and brilliant warmutterance he loved in his friend.It was the rich play of words and quick interchange of feelings he enjoyed.The real content of the words he never really considered: he himself knew better.Birkin knew this.He knew that Gerald wanted to be FOND of him without taking him seriously.And thismade him go hard and cold.As the train ran on, he sat looking at the land, and Gerald fell away, became asnothing to him.Birkin looked at the land, at the evening, and was thinking: 'Well, if mankind is destroyed, if our race isdestroyed like Sodom, and there is this beautiful evening with the luminous land and trees, I am satisfied.Thatwhich informs it all is there, and can never be lost.After all, what is mankind but just one expression of theincomprehensible.And if mankind passes away, it will only mean that this particular expression is completedWomen in Love 47/371 Women in Loveand done.That which is expressed, and that which is to be expressed, cannot be diminished.There it is, in theshining evening.Let mankind pass away--time it did.The creative utterances will not cease, they will onlybe there.Humanity doesn't embody the utterance of the incomprehensible any more.Humanity is a deadletter.There will be a new embodiment, in a new way.Let humanity disappear as quick as possible.'Gerald interrupted him by asking,'Where are you staying in London?'Birkin looked up.'With a man in Soho.I pay part of the rent of a flat, and stop there when I like.''Good idea--have a place more or less your own,' said Gerald.'Yes.But I don't care for it much.I'm tired of the people I am bound to find there.''What kind of people?''Art--music--London Bohemia--the most pettifogging calculating Bohemia that ever reckoned its pennies.But there are a few decent people, decent in some respects.They are really very thorough rejecters of theworld--perhaps they live only in the gesture of rejection and negation--but negatively something, at anyrate.''What are they?--painters, musicians?''Painters, musicians, writers--hangers-on, models, advanced young people, anybody who is openly at outswith the conventions, and belongs to nowhere particularly.They are often young fellows down from theUniversity, and girls who are living their own lives, as they say.''All loose?' said Gerald.Birkin could see his curiosity roused.'In one way.Most bound, in another.For all their shockingness, all on one note.'He looked at Gerald, and saw how his blue eyes were lit up with a little flame of curious desire.He saw toohow good-looking he was.Gerald was attractive, his blood seemed fluid and electric.His blue eyes burnedwith a keen, yet cold light, there was a certain beauty, a beautiful passivity in all his body, his moulding.'We might see something of each other--I am in London for two or three days,' said Gerald.'Yes,' said Birkin, 'I don't want to go to the theatre, or the music hall--you'd better come round to the flat, andsee what you can make of Halliday and his crowd.''Thanks--I should like to,' laughed Gerald.'What are you doing tonight?''I promised to meet Halliday at the Pompadour.It's a bad place, but there is nowhere else.''Where is it?' asked Gerald.Women in Love 48/371 Women in Love'Piccadilly Circus.''Oh yes--well, shall I come round there?''By all means, it might amuse you.'The evening was falling.They had passed Bedford.Birkin watched the country, and was filled with a sort ofhopelessness.He always felt this, on approaching London.His dislike of mankind, of the mass of mankind, amounted almost to an illness.'"Where the quiet coloured end of evening smiles Miles and miles--"' he was murmuring to himself, like aman condemned to death [ Pobierz całość w formacie PDF ]
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.Women in Love 46/371 Women in Love'You don't? Then wherein does life centre, for you?''I don't know--that's what I want somebody to tell me.As far as I can make out, it doesn't centre at all.It isartificially held TOGETHER by the social mechanism.'Birkin pondered as if he would crack something.'I know,' he said, 'it just doesn't centre.The old ideals are dead as nails--nothing there.It seems to me thereremains only this perfect union with a woman--sort of ultimate marriage--and there isn't anything else.''And you mean if there isn't the woman, there's nothing?' said Gerald.'Pretty well that--seeing there's no God.''Then we're hard put to it,' said Gerald.And he turned to look out of the window at the flying, goldenlandscape.Birkin could not help seeing how beautiful and soldierly his face was, with a certain courage to be indifferent.'You think its heavy odds against us?' said Birkin.'If we've got to make our life up out of a woman, one woman, woman only, yes, I do,' said Gerald.'I don'tbelieve I shall ever make up MY life, at that rate.'Birkin watched him almost angrily.'You are a born unbeliever,' he said.'I only feel what I feel,' said Gerald.And he looked again at Birkin almost sardonically, with his blue, manly,sharp-lighted eyes.Birkin's eyes were at the moment full of anger.But swiftly they became troubled,doubtful, then full of a warm, rich affectionateness and laughter.'It troubles me very much, Gerald,' he said, wrinkling his brows.'I can see it does,' said Gerald, uncovering his mouth in a manly, quick, soldierly laugh.Gerald was held unconsciously by the other man.He wanted to be near him, he wanted to be within his sphereof influence.There was something very congenial to him in Birkin.But yet, beyond this, he did not take muchnotice.He felt that he, himself, Gerald, had harder and more durable truths than any the other man knew.Hefelt himself older, more knowing.It was the quick-changing warmth and venality and brilliant warmutterance he loved in his friend.It was the rich play of words and quick interchange of feelings he enjoyed.The real content of the words he never really considered: he himself knew better.Birkin knew this.He knew that Gerald wanted to be FOND of him without taking him seriously.And thismade him go hard and cold.As the train ran on, he sat looking at the land, and Gerald fell away, became asnothing to him.Birkin looked at the land, at the evening, and was thinking: 'Well, if mankind is destroyed, if our race isdestroyed like Sodom, and there is this beautiful evening with the luminous land and trees, I am satisfied.Thatwhich informs it all is there, and can never be lost.After all, what is mankind but just one expression of theincomprehensible.And if mankind passes away, it will only mean that this particular expression is completedWomen in Love 47/371 Women in Loveand done.That which is expressed, and that which is to be expressed, cannot be diminished.There it is, in theshining evening.Let mankind pass away--time it did.The creative utterances will not cease, they will onlybe there.Humanity doesn't embody the utterance of the incomprehensible any more.Humanity is a deadletter.There will be a new embodiment, in a new way.Let humanity disappear as quick as possible.'Gerald interrupted him by asking,'Where are you staying in London?'Birkin looked up.'With a man in Soho.I pay part of the rent of a flat, and stop there when I like.''Good idea--have a place more or less your own,' said Gerald.'Yes.But I don't care for it much.I'm tired of the people I am bound to find there.''What kind of people?''Art--music--London Bohemia--the most pettifogging calculating Bohemia that ever reckoned its pennies.But there are a few decent people, decent in some respects.They are really very thorough rejecters of theworld--perhaps they live only in the gesture of rejection and negation--but negatively something, at anyrate.''What are they?--painters, musicians?''Painters, musicians, writers--hangers-on, models, advanced young people, anybody who is openly at outswith the conventions, and belongs to nowhere particularly.They are often young fellows down from theUniversity, and girls who are living their own lives, as they say.''All loose?' said Gerald.Birkin could see his curiosity roused.'In one way.Most bound, in another.For all their shockingness, all on one note.'He looked at Gerald, and saw how his blue eyes were lit up with a little flame of curious desire.He saw toohow good-looking he was.Gerald was attractive, his blood seemed fluid and electric.His blue eyes burnedwith a keen, yet cold light, there was a certain beauty, a beautiful passivity in all his body, his moulding.'We might see something of each other--I am in London for two or three days,' said Gerald.'Yes,' said Birkin, 'I don't want to go to the theatre, or the music hall--you'd better come round to the flat, andsee what you can make of Halliday and his crowd.''Thanks--I should like to,' laughed Gerald.'What are you doing tonight?''I promised to meet Halliday at the Pompadour.It's a bad place, but there is nowhere else.''Where is it?' asked Gerald.Women in Love 48/371 Women in Love'Piccadilly Circus.''Oh yes--well, shall I come round there?''By all means, it might amuse you.'The evening was falling.They had passed Bedford.Birkin watched the country, and was filled with a sort ofhopelessness.He always felt this, on approaching London.His dislike of mankind, of the mass of mankind, amounted almost to an illness.'"Where the quiet coloured end of evening smiles Miles and miles--"' he was murmuring to himself, like aman condemned to death [ Pobierz całość w formacie PDF ]